The past month has been a complete whirlwind for me. There were moments where I felt that everything around me was crumbling and there were times where I felt so blessed that I could almost burst with joy! The best way to describe my last month is best described in Nephi's words in The Book of Mormon.
"I, Nephi, having been born of goodly parents, therefore I was taught somewhat in all the learning of my father; and having seen many afflictions in the course of my days, nevertheless, having been highly favored of the Lord in all my days; yea, having had a great knowledge of the goodness and the mysteries of God, therefore I make a record of my proceedings in my days." (1Nephi 1:1)I have learned a lot about this scripture over the past month. I have learned that as we follow our Savior, he gives us blessings. He blesses us when we need those blessings. Often times, he gives us those blessing to help us to get through our trials.
About a month ago, I was laid off of a job that I absolutely loved. I had been with them for just over 2 years and I was being let go. I was hurt, confused, and completely heart broken about it. I didn't understand why it was happening. I had no idea what my future would hold. I didn't know if I would have to eventually move back home with my parents or if I would be able to find a job. It took so long last time I had to find a job and I didn't want to go through all of that again. I had no idea how I was going to get through it all. Well there was only one thing I knew to do. I went to the gym and got my head back on straight. I knew that the Lord had a plan for me. I knew that he had prepared me for this. He had inspired me back in the fall to update my resume and portfolio and to start applying for jobs. I had taken a break from applying for jobs around the holidays, but it was super easy to get back into applying mode. I had everything I needed.
It is amazing to me how the Lord blesses us with peace as we pass through different trials. When I went back to the office to clean out my desk, I was so worried that I would break down again and be super depressed. However, I felt the exact opposite. I didn't feel sad at all. I felt as though a huge weight had been lifted and I was now free to progress in my career and life in general.
Throughout the past month, I have seen blessings pour out to me. I have had interviews and have had experiences that helped raise my confidence in myself. I came to know that I am a good designer and I have a lot to offer. I put in a lot of hard work. My first week, I applied for 50 jobs. I continued to apply for as many jobs as possible each of the following weeks. I know that because of all the hard work I put in and all of my prayers pleading to Heavenly Father to help me find something, it payed off. I was able to accept a wonderful job offer this week with a company that I know is going to help me to grow in ways that I never thought possible. I know that as we do our part, the Lord will do his.
There are so many other blessings I have experienced over the past month that I wont share here because they are personal, but I know that without out those blessings I would have been a complete train wreck through all of this. Those blessings have helped me to find the happy times as I have gone through the hard. I believe that is why Nephi was able to focus on how the Lord blessed him in that verse rather than focusing on all the hard things he had to go through with his brothers. I truly believe that we can find happiness in every single situation. All we have to do is look for it and pray for it.
